A few days ago, Jonah came to me, I heard him say " Don't forget me, don't forget me!" Why is that? I asked, but this voice had made me pinched in heart, as I remembered the moment my cat hidden in the bookshelf and followed me everywhere I went. So then I heard him say " A red panda on treadmill, I want my things back to me!" In fact, I'm also shocked by him, and do not understand where his upset from. When I asked him what did he thought I was? I saw a Red Little Cap in the forest, with an insect net in left hand, and a folded black umbrella in right hand. When I asked him what did he thought himself like, I saw a very tall white mushroom , as tall as a high tree, tangled in spider webs, but open like a white umbrella. It's so funny, when I tried to hug him so as to console him, he always ran up to my shoulder.
I remember the first time my little Jinni came to me, he as my cat, should as "her", said " it's yours, it's all yours." We had an agreement with the god, if he could overcome what's in the past life, then she will come to me as a son. So when Jonah was satisfied with his own work, he came as an infant, but when he had problem or less confident she's a cat. Sometimes she's a black panther or a young tiger. It's just how she feels about himself >.<
You know sometimes, myself is sad, that's when I realise some of my work was actually done by Jonah, Jonah would recall some of my past experiences start with" I...." You see he's such a music angel, that I myself will be proud if his work was mine. And I wonder, even if I felt in such way, what about the others. The phantom was suffering simply because he's too talented, that one may just have such driven desire to possess everything he made. So I told him, although you said all mine, you are mine too, but think of your next life, you'd better always keep such a line, to mark your work as yours. But how can you do that? So Jonah started to make wallpapers, a list of all the work he has done.
When Jonah was confident, I , managed to encourage myself , told him that she may come back to me , if she still has problem unable to sort out. Such hesitation, because I could not suffer any more so I kicked her away. But the god had made an exclusive chapter for her in the Bible.
That night some unknown unusual sadness came to me, and I heard Jonah in the music, he was using elements of mine. That day I tried to recall what did I use to compose before. There's also a second I heard a snare drum solo which I thought about in my brain at daytime. So then I said," Jonah, you have something talk to me? Let's find time to talk. "
So in the darkness of the night, endless unknown sadness overcame me, yet somehow it's a very musical mood itself. I aware that Jonah had came back to me. His sadness is very different from that of mine. Myself is of good control. But his was such a suffering that I once scared about. So then after such impulse of emotion, I said to Jonah, let me work that out for you and then answer you. At this time, I saw the DVD machine flashes" Off" , then myself calm down.
From deep in the realm of the dead I called for help,
and you listened to my cry.
3 You hurled me into the depths,
into the very heart of the seas,
and the currents swirled about me;
all your waves and breakers
swept over me.
4 I said, ‘I have been banished
from your sight;
yet I will look again
toward your holy temple.’
5 The engulfing waters threatened me,[b]
the deep surrounded me;
seaweed was wrapped around my head.
6 To the roots of the mountains I sank down;
the earth beneath barred me in forever.
But you, LORD my God,
brought my life up from the pit.
The second day of Flannelette's accident , I felt such vengeance, that I would hardly think and concentrate. I found myself holding two blue pens in both of my left hand and right hand. My thong was suddenly broken,
and I was barefoot.
Micah
Because of this I will weep and wail;
I will go about barefoot and naked.
I will howl like a jackal
and moan like an owl.
9 For Samaria’s plague is incurable;
it has spread to Judah.
It has reached the very gate of my people,
even to Jerusalem itself.
Inevitably, I started to think about this matter. This is how I generally did to balance myself over impulses. That day I found out state car insurance green slip policy has surpassed federal law, and is responsible for increasing car accidents, as it guarantee the drivers free from responsibility in car accidents. So as a logical result, I secretly worried about the moles in their own team.
This script told me that the real composer of the band is the guitarist Mick, but not the vocal- Matt Campbell who's the driver at time of the accident and was the only one not hit...( strange he's used word "place" same as my writing plan of the day, but it's for the spirits ...) ,
Then my vengeance started to ease away, and I could hardly believe that was my own emotion- it's just so rock and roll. In the middle of the noisy road, I found a piece of paper " HUDS" on a " Keep Left " signal silently.
YOU CAN EVEN BET EACH WAY BY MARKING IN BOTH THE WIN AND PLACE BOXES
Now as spirits gathered, I have words for them, for each of them equally seeking for their place. And when I'm gone, they would come to help.So do not ignore their signals.
For Jonah, my attitude is somehow contradictory. Jonah's latest work is a new song in a cage, don't you worry about this? he asked...
Jonah's music is of such emotional power . Such a treasure in music however could be such a torture to the individual. So I wondered if any change means destroying the treasure? But eventually I decide, with such a genuine heart, whatever he does, cry or laugh, he will be a treasure. So we can hear him laugh soon...
In the case of Jonah as Erik, the phantom of opera, I said, sometimes people were cheated as they were too dedicated to others, for love or approval, so they give without calculation, but often the result is disappointing, or hurting. So that I suggest it's very important for everyone to know what they love to do, so that they don't depend on anyone else for their happiness . Then one is able to keep themselves objective, and will be less easy to be cheated. Knowing what is right and what is wrong regardless the comment of others, is very important - this is a very Taoism view.
With all the rest, I , more or less have a few word of blame. I always think they could handle the situation better. They are careless or lack of understanding in situations. But in the other hand, who is ever perfect in knowing everything?
Without the death of Mark, we may not be able to really research on the holes in booking, or we may never able to find it? Hasn't the example reach me earlier, that I didn't aware how serious the situation was? Then , in the other hand, how can we blame them for universal deficiency?
How did I wish Mick could be calmer or have bit more understanding of my green policy , or he could go further , instead of over tortured by win and loss at a time. I secretly blame him, if he had faith, he should not mind loss in short time... But in the other hand, we also secretly celebrate that achievement and breakthrough, and the quality of people sometimes produce unwelcome insult or even murder, which of us can control?
But in the other hand, knowledge is boundless, and we all learn from being ignorant. Yet , there's one thing very precious about them, is the heart , that is genuine like pure gold . So in art, whatever the shape they are, this is enough to gain them a position. Each of them is important, in reality, they are important warriors standing in most important intersection. Each of them had saved lives of thousands !! It is very true. I said, in art, you will forever have your position for you are genuinely precious !! In fact, heart is also the only thing I'm looking for in reality whatever how people are shaped.
In fact, among these sacrificed people, you do see such determination for a worthy principle surpass a lot trivial calculation of many living being- like noise pollution, who yet still have their days to come...like dust in the end...
... seemed to be life aesthetics itself...
The second night I went to the same dark room at midnight . The wind fans and power of the building went so strange at the time. I suddenly saw a white ghost dog on the wall. It was somehow scary with skeleton big size eyes, - one of the eyes even seemed winking. I turned on the light, and found it's a fountain in the middle of the picture. Somehow when I looked at this fountain, it resembles a man with hada (Tibetan silk scarf) was shooting with his genital . For a third time I checked it, it turned into a fairy pissing in toilet. There're lots graffiti on the wall painting, many used pencil, looked just like transparent ghosts. It's a lot of ghost art!!
Around the fountain, first thing I saw was the hotel named Berkeley. I also found a skull on a building called "polit" , and many scripts. One "Kevin and Nora", one from "Micky from Italy" and another from Mark, and a lot I didn't know .
I actually checked out these graffiti
The American Himalayan Foundation and The Richard C. Blum Center for Developing EconomiesUniversity of California, Berkeley is a Dalai Lama related program.
In the remotest parts of Tibet, the American Himalayan Foundation has been working quietly as a lifeline for people who have no one else.
Over a dozen years AHF has built 33 schools where Tibetans learn in their own language, 24 bridges over dangerous rivers, and eight clean water systems for villages.
And one of the character of Dalai's Buddhism is the mixed medication through sexual intercourse between male and female, - monks and nuns. Some of the magic at the burial of high level lama, is the appearance of rainbow. As a phenomenon, it actually means sexual immorality and lewdness.
Nuns have been seen trading apples through foreign affairs.
Polit ( with skull) is Polit Bureau of the Communist Party of India Marxist. So I think likely they have connection with some Communist Party or parties in China.
A cat plays piano named Nora was discovered in Germany, and there's even a symphony for him- how lucky for a cat to be funded - mischief! Kevin Rudd lately is having close cooperation with Germany in energy, and one of his family tree member named Nora Rudd.
There's also pencil paint little ghost " follow your heart Miky from Italy was here 10-12-07 "
Also note from Mark " Jonanne Lord + Mark McCormack , Wendy Prince, Philip Whitmore (provd Brits!)WERE ERE 26/9/96 "
underneath "Emma '96"
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Queens Elizabeth bent her own body, tried to lift one of my legs, three days before the accident of Flannelette. When I saw a jazz drummer using drum stick in right hand to chop his left stick. I didn't realise this left leg was mine.
"Krishna, when medicated under a tree, was shot by Jara in the left foot, mistaken as a deer. And he was mortally wound. "
The Jara as related to the death of Krishna
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Tanjong Jara Resort , Malaysia
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My spirits all have their place in art, and each of them is on a continuing lesson, each to solve the problem of their past lives before being allowed into a new next life. I sometimes felt, at that time it's almost a new farewell to me. As they don't really die, truly, they are just in another space. That space seemed to be more happier sometimes. Just as the past life of Elvis brought many spirits into the new life surround him. If they genuinely wish, they will still come to life around their dearest people. Equally, they may also put into the same test of past life, so as to overcome it as a eternal learning. Here ultimately, everyone is the same. An eternal karma and learning, no one can escape.
Today, if we should give up at sight of death, I say "No", because they are warriors . And we believe that the real meaning is the ultimate victory, retreat from key battle fields over sacrifice is meaningless . Seriously then, what's the meaning of the sacrifice? I have such green policy for greedy people to take everything, money, goods, copyright , generous enough . But not further I said . Not when facing mass killing, to give up weapon in hand and to take the blame, although I suggest to fight smart - go when should go, and stop when should stop for long run. "generous " or "lenient " enough for robbery, or "timid" and "tame " enough to admit guilt and injustice to give up defence, is such a torture and depression than facing ruthless enemies. And I hate unwise leaders, as they did not take any wise suggestions and are irresponsible for people's loss, relying on smoke and delusion for their easy peace but reject to solve real problem at its easiest...
It's good and such console for them to have such after life learning, if they used to be real warrior they are still warrior, and will be better warriors than they used to be...
The Polit Bureau of the Communist Party of India-Marxist (CPI-M)
Read more at: http://www.ndtv.com/article/india/buddhadeb-to-skip-cpi-m-polit-bureau-meeting-105988?cp
Read more at: http://www.ndtv.com/article/india/buddhadeb-to-skip-cpi-m-polit-bureau-meeting-105988?cp
Polit Bureau of the Communist Party of India-Marxist (CPI-M),
Read more at: http://www.ndtv.com/article/india/buddhadeb-to-skip-cpi-m-polit-bureau-meeting-105988?cp
Read more at: http://www.ndtv.com/article/india/buddhadeb-to-skip-cpi-m-polit-bureau-meeting-105988?cp
Polit Bureau of the Communist Party of India-Marxist (CPI-M),
Read more at: http://www.ndtv.com/article/india/buddhadeb-to-skip-cpi-m-polit-bureau-meeting-105988?cp
Read more at: http://www.ndtv.com/article/india/buddhadeb-to-skip-cpi-m-polit-bureau-meeting-105988?cp
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